Generally speaking, all eating disorders come with weird food rituals. CFC called them food games. The funny thing about "food games" is that its not what I am DOING that matters most, but what's going on in my head. For instance, Pop Tarts... I enjoy eating them, but I really don't like the edges. No fruit filling, dry edges, and no frosting (yes, I like the frosted ones. I spent a long time trying to convince myself I liked the "healthier" non-frosted ones, but I don't. I hate those...)
A few months ago, I decided I didn't have to eat the edges if I didn't like them... So I started breaking them off. Today, I realized, it has changed. Now, it is, "I am not allowed to eat the edges." Something about cutting back on calories, eating less is better, or something else EQUALLY RIDICULOUS.
Today, I am eating the stupid edges, which I still don't like, just to show myself that the eating disorder is WRONG!
...I hate eating disorders!!!
Thursday, November 5, 2009
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I don't particularly like the edges either. But I still eat them mainly because cutting them off sounds like more work then it's worth.ReplyDelete