Thursday, November 5, 2009

Take that...

Generally speaking, all eating disorders come with weird food rituals. CFC called them food games. The funny thing about "food games" is that its not what I am DOING that matters most, but what's going on in my head. For instance, Pop Tarts... I enjoy eating them, but I really don't like the edges. No fruit filling, dry edges, and no frosting (yes, I like the frosted ones. I spent a long time trying to convince myself I liked the "healthier" non-frosted ones, but I don't. I hate those...)

A few months ago, I decided I didn't have to eat the edges if I didn't like them... So I started breaking them off. Today, I realized, it has changed. Now, it is, "I am not allowed to eat the edges." Something about cutting back on calories, eating less is better, or something else EQUALLY RIDICULOUS.

Today, I am eating the stupid edges, which I still don't like, just to show myself that the eating disorder is WRONG!

...I hate eating disorders!!!

1 comment:

  1. I don't particularly like the edges either. But I still eat them mainly because cutting them off sounds like more work then it's worth.