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Saturday, October 29, 2011

My mom and I

This morning, talking to my parents, I got the question, "How do people even find your blog? I've tried searching, and I can't find you."

I explained I have made it so you can't find the blog by searching for me, but if you search abuse, or church, or the name of it you can find it... and then paused, "Wait, you've searched for my blog? Why?"

My mom wanted to read it. All of this time, I thought she'd never asked to read it because she didn't want to. I talk about it to her, to my dad, and we've had several discussions about it... But she's never asked for the link, or if she could read it, or why I haven't sent it to her.

When I first started this blog, I wanted it to be public but anonymous. I don't really feel that need anymore. I do understand that I am talking about very sensitive and intense subjects. I'm telling my stories, and I don't want to subject anyone to my stories that doesn't WANT them. I admit, I used to feel sad that my mom didn't want to know my stories...I got over it. I hadn't even thought about it for a long time.

Which is what makes this so ironic... She was feeling sad that I "didn't want her to read it", and I was feeling sad that she "didn't want to read it." Heh. Sometimes my mom and I are so much alike it's silly.


So, now... everyone welcome mis padres... my parents now read this here blog. Which is awesome.

4 comments:

  1. Granted, my blog content is VERY different, but my mom reads my blog and it makes me happy. Welcome, Jen's mom :)

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  2. Yes, I am here reading. I love you Jen and am very interested in all the parts of your life. I am glad that you are willing to share them openly now. You are a wonderful person with wonderful insights and learning. Te amo!

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  3. I've sometimes felt uncomfortable discussing things from your blog in front of mom and dad. I wasn't sure who was invited and who wasn't. So I didn't want to say anything you didn't want them to know, and I didn't want to make them feel like they weren't part of the in club. Now I'm glad neither is a concern.

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  4. I am okay with everyone knowing my life, and I'm okay with anyone who wants to read what I write reading it... I just thought the padres didn't want to read what I had to write, which is why they didn't ask... Although now, I can see why no one asked. Silly me. :)

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