Friday, July 3, 2009

Look at the horses!!!

Every time I go into the mountains to ride, I become a celebrity of sorts. All of the little kids point and love the horses. Most of the time I hate it. I felt embarrassed and ashamed that I was on the horse when the kids seemed to love them so much. I have actually thought about offering my horse to some little kid (who obviously deserve it more than I do).

Today was a little different. Today I thought about how lucky I was to be on the horse. I never thought I would ever be the one on the horse. All of the times Dave brought his horses for everyone to ride, and I never did. I let everyone else go, but not me. I WANTED to ride back then, but I thought I was supposed to let everyone else ride. I was supposed to help the little kids when they were on. I led a lot of horses back and forth while the littler kids rode, but I never did. Today I got to be the one on the horse. I felt grateful and happy…

And then, I felt the normal guilt. The difference is that the guilt came second to the happy feelings. Happy was first today. That is amazing to me!

1 comment:

  1. I'm glad you're a celebrity. Now I can say I knew you when.... :)