Little Victories

I know I haven't been here for a while...

I have spent this week up at the LDS Booksellers Association Convention. I have enjoyed doing something different. I have loved watching people's reactions as I show them the pins I helped design. I have loved meeting people who's names I see all the time, and putting faces with the voices from the phone. It was just fun!

I would like to share a few other "little victories" from this week:

I hate spending money on myself, but there was a necklace that I LOVED! So, I bought it.

I went hiking with a friend. I wasn't feeling too hot, but I thought if we just started moving, I would get better... I didn't. I asked if we could stop hiking and go back. I have never "quit" early... but I think it was the best thing I could have done for me! My biggest concern is how she is handling it... and I hope she will go with me again.

I set boundaries with another friend. She has been taken over by an eating disorder, and talking to her is not easy. I told her that I wanted to see her, but that I couldn't spend the time we were planning on. I felt stronger (with a little help from Amanda) after talking to her. I love her, and I would do almost anything to help her, and I am also taking care of me...

I don't sleep much... being up all night makes me hungry. So, I am now regularly eating snacks at night too... Nothing scheduled, just eating when I feel hungry - no matter what time it is. WHOA! Actual - for reals - Intuitive Eating!

We went to a campout for our ward. Ward campouts have been huge, big, tremendous triggers for me... The people, the environment, everything about it brings on eating disorder craziness. This time, I ate dinner, and actually talked to a few people... meaningful conversations! (I actually talked about ME, which I don't do much, and it didn't even kill me.)

Tonight, I played RockBand with Justin for forever. No worries - just chillin' and hangin' with my little bro - like a normal person does.

And now, maybe I am going to sleep... like a normal person does.