I was invited to go on a four day fishing trip. I will be the only girl there. We will be camping and sleeping in a tent, fishing during the day, and I am really excited.
And nervous. A long time ago, I was raped in my sleep. Many times.
My nights are a million times better than they once were, but I still have nightmares occasionally and night terrors fairly often, and a tent with four other men could be incredibly problematic for me.
I've been invited before, but didn't go, because I was afraid of trying to sleep.
This time, I decided to do it differently.
I talked about what my nights are like. I asked for some accommodations that will make my trip more fun. We talked about sleeping arrangements. We talked about how they can help if I do have nightmares or night terrors. (BJ will be there, so I told them to just trust him.) I also promised to take care of myself - which means if I don't sleep at nights, rest during the day.
I feel guilty - that somehow I am a burden on my friends.
My friends have insisted that they want me there, and what seems like a huge deal to me is really no big deal to them.
The trip is six weeks away, but I can hardly wait.
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Going fishing with the guys
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What an amazing step forward! Have a great time and tell us how it went.ReplyDelete
I will! The trip is May 1, so I got some time... It turns out one of the guys going also plays the fiddle, so we're going to bring our fiddles and jam at least one of the nights.Delete