Sometimes I beat myself up for not saying "No" strong enough.
Other times I beat myself up for saying "No" at all (to Larry).
If someone is going to be that close to me, and NOT know that I don't want them there, then there's something seriously wrong with THEM.
My tears. My panic. My shaking. It should have been enough.
If they had wanted to know, they would have known.
They DID know? And they shouldn't have done it.